Some days, I just don't feel like I'm enough. I get drowned by house work, creative projects, entertaining Jonah, cooking breakfast, washing dishes, the non stop laundry ... it's just overwhelming. Sometimes I get to the end of the day and it feels like I've been running around all day working and getting nothing done.
Sometimes I can't hold Jonah when he gets hurt because I'm nursing Emery.
Sometimes Emery rolls into a toy that I left on the floor when I laid him down.
A couple of days ago, I fed Jonah fries for dinner.
Not even sweet potato, low sodium, somewhat healthy fries.
Just straight up fast food, greasy, salty, FRIES.
Sometimes I feel like the worst, laziest, most selfish mom ever.
But then a touch from Jonah or a smile from Emery and they remind me that in their eyes, I am always enough. I can fail them a hundred times in one day, but I'm still the one that makes them feel safe. My arms are the ones they want holding them and it's my voice that comforts and calms them. I put so much pressure on myself to be every kind of mom to them, but at the end of the day they don't want all the other moms I'm trying to be. They just want me. In all of my weakness, all of my failures, all of my craziness, I am mama and I am enough.
You are enough.
Even when you lose your temper.
Even when your house is messy.
When you wonder if you were made to do this.
When you're convinced you're screwing them up for life.
When you choose facebook over story time and Dora over hide and seek.
You are enough. You will always be enough. Never let anyone (including yourself) make you think differently.