Doing things I've never done.

It has been a LONG two weeks. After spending a week in Massachussetts for Thanksgiving, we spent a week at home recovering from the stomach flu. As I write this, I am STILL not completely recovered and am considering making a visit to the doctor. It's been rough. My house is still in shambles. I JUST unpacked my suitcase and our laundry pile is... well. It's embarrassing. I do not have things together this week. Or last week. Or probably next week either. Please tell me I'm not the only one. Neglected household responsibilities aside, I'm pretty excited about my recent determination to improve my photography skills. I'm not great. I'm not awful.....but I'm not great. I'm somewhere between "I have a nice camera so I'm a photographer" and "Almost professional". I would really like to lean more towards the "Almost professional." I get really frustrated when I can't get my photos to look the way I want them to. And since the only way to get results you've never got before is do something you've never done before.......

I joined Clickin' Moms. Can I just tell you the heart palpitations that I had the moment I signed up? I'm not even kidding. I was so nervous and intimidated and overwhelmed and just kind of lost. But the community has been great and accepting and encouraging and totally wonderful. It's totally 100% worth the investment and I'm so excited to be there and I'm saving every penny I find to take a workshop.

Speaking of workshops, I am now enrolled in my first one EVER at Arrow & Apple. I'm so ashamed that I've been into photography for as long as I can remember and I've owned a DSLR for 4 years now and I've never taken a photography course. I've read books and tutorials, but a workshop is a totally different experience. I'm excited. And also scared. Cause what if I take a hundred courses and workshops and still don't improve?? Does that mean I should retire my camera and accept defeat?? Eghhh. Let's just hope that doesn't happen. I get intimated and insecure REALLY easily when it comes to things like this.

So we'll see where things go. It's just fun right now because I'm not doing this to make more money or anything like that. I just really believe that if you love doing something, you should learn everything you can and become an expert at it. It's easy to remain stagnant and get comfortable and never change or grow or try anything new. I do that a lot. So here's to trying new things and doing things you've never done and being vulnerable and risking rejection and getting awesome!!